The Continuing Saga-Part IV

continued from previous entry....

I am the MOM who's bought him the expensive "had to have or I'll die" skater shoes and name-brand t-shirts! THE MOM who'd react to a special smile and replace a broken skateboard deck for the fifthteenth time.

This MOM is the MOM who's had to grin and bear it when her car mirror is shattered by an errant go-cart. Or special knick-knacks broken to bits by a rough and tumble boy and his friends.

THE MOM who complained about carpet stains rather than discipline her boy who'd totally disregard her repeated requests NOT to eat or drink in the family room.

I am the MOM who's been embarassed by his drunk in the park episode that made the local newspaper, after he and his best friend were arrested by a friend of mine.

This MOM is the one who bought him a Boxer puppy he named Sly.

This is the MOM who made sure he had family traditions at the holidays, and memorable family vacations. The MOM who loved him unconditionally, who encouraged him, disciplined and taught him manners and responsibility.

BUT...she's his "MOM" to hear him tell it! PLEASE....

I am sooooo angry with him right now!

I remember his hurtful comments like, "Well, you NEVER asked me if I WANTED to be adopted, or if I WANTED to leave my brothers in Oklahoma!"

He told Tam that he didn't have a drug/alcohol "problem" after all, and that he wasn't using drugs there. But he said that he did drink alcohol on New Year's with Kelly. So, nothing's changed.

I can't believe that his "family" would allow him to drink, considering what alcohol has done to them.

Imagine...NO drug or alcohol problem!  He needs to tell all that crap to someone who's going to believe it because this MOM knows better.

In my heart I know that we did the honorable, and right thing all those years ago, and that we have provided him the best possible home life and loved him all these years.

I feel that during this time he's just confused and being immature and selfish. Like I tried to explain to Abbie....He's got to have some more hard knocks in life before he realizes who his "family" really is!

And...most of all, what constitutes a MOM!